Some days I find that I am asking myself that very question… I also wonder why I do it? Why try so hard at something when the object of my submission is so far away? When you are a military wife you learn that your husband ends up leading “two lives” and if someone were to ask me, I describe the military as my husbands “mistress” most of the time.
Being submissive is not easy for me, I am head strong, feisty and pretty controlling. Sometimes I feel bad for my husband due to the fact that he isn’t necessarily naturally dominant and I feel like I am a lot to handle at times. But, due to certain personality traits of mine I wonder if being a military wife and being submissive can work together?
In times of separation I am expected to be mommy and daddy as well as all of the normal stuff (cooking, cleaning, paying bills etc.) Then comes the natural disasters that seem to come when your husband is gone… Broken doors, leaky toilets, going to the dump (YUCK!!!) and all of the fun Mr. Fix it stuff that my husband would normally take care of. Doing all of these things makes me feel as far from submissive as I could possibly get. I do not feel taken care of, I am the one doing all the caring.
I guess I am feeling a bit out of sorts today…
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Thank you! I really love hearing from people that like what I have to say… I hope you have a great day!
Aah, I’m really sorry. That’s just plain hard. I can’t tell you how much I respect women like you who are trying to follow and submit when your husband is overseas. If it were me I would be out of sorts ALL THE TIME. I hope you are feeling a bit better tomorrow and that there are no new natural disasters!